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I'm only 27, the twins are only starting to show, and already I'm considering buying shares in Tena Lady!

I feel like an old lady, I've never had this problem before and I'm hoping that everything will settle down once the kids are born. Fingers crossed.

but instead I throw up brushing my teeth. I throw up when something presses against or touches my neck, like the collar of my coat. I also throw up each time my tummy is dodgy.

Think I'd rather suffer morning sickness, at least I would know when to expect it instead of this.

Have started brushing my teeth in work because I can't do it when I wake up, not that it helps much but sometimes it's easier and I don't retch so much when it's later in the day. As for things touching my neck well that's just awkward, especially with the heavy coat I had bought last month with my birthday money, the collar turns in slightly and covers all of my neck, I've taken to bending the pointy bits and tucking it under the coat a bit so it's not touching, but that doesn't always work.

Not amused by this at all.

Sounds strange I know but I'm just not in the mood for anything.

Where's all the strange cravings I should be having?!?!?!?!?!

I'M WAITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bit hard to say cause we were all so knackered on the Friday from the early start and all the hanging around before we could get into the caravans.

Saturday morning was spent watching the kids swimming in the pool, there is one of them that needs an audience no matter what he does but it's hard to say no to him because he's got that cute thing about him that melts hearts, little monster that he is. Saturday afternoon and evening was a bit long and drawn, lots of slot machines, wandering about, trying to win tickets for prizes and then a cabaret which was really bad. Well it might've been ok but I was too sober to appreciate it.

On Sunday it was bouncing out of the heavens and gale force winds almost. We got absolutely soaked! Lovely Sunday lunch though at the carvery, which kinda made up for the soaking but I spent the afternoon really freezing, just couldn't heat up at all, I threw up and had a few dizzy spells. Wasn't a happy bunny at all. Everyone came round to our caravan Sunday night as I wasn't feeling too good so spent most of the evening playing card games with the kids and telling the pair of them to watch out for the aliens on Men in Black (can't believe they've never seen it before, usually they've seen everything at least once).

Monday morning brought lovely weather. Spent most of the morning sitting in the restaurant/lounge/bar drinking cups of tea waiting on various bits and pieces. The heat in the arcade really got to me so I ended up back out where I started drinking a bottle of water trying to avoid a dizzy spell. After that it was just a really long wait for the boat at teatime but we couldn't leave until about 2 or 3ish as we had to wait for the bus. Nightmareish long day.

Boat home arrived early which was good but the bus to the bus station had to wait for a mechanic to arrive as it had a flat battery. In bed for after 11pm.

Defintely want to go again next year, but if we go we're driving as there's no way I'm attempting to be a foot passenger on a boat with two babies, don't think I could risk the bus journey to Ayr and back with them. Driving would be much easier and possibly cheaper as well as we wouldn't have to pay for individual passengers, just the car on the boat.

Hopefully next year I won't be feeling so bad, and if we go when the season is in full flow rather than at the end of it like this time then the entertainment might be a lot better.

Got some good pics, and I'll be printing off mummy-in-law's pics and sis-in-law's pics as well so will be putting them up on facebook shortly.

...starting tomorrow and home on Monday.

We're going to Haven in Ayr and I'm really looking forward to going. Have never been to a holiday camp before so it'll be a new experience for me and the last time hubbie was at one he was a kid so it'll be a different experience for him also. You never know if we have fun and see plenty to entertain us we'll end up taking the kids in the next few years to get them used to going away before we consider going farther afield.

Have 4 sets of batteries for my camera all charged up and waiting so I'm planning on taking loads of pics and cause I'm not able to drink I'll be the one watching all the nonsense and taking pics of it happening so when my sis-in-law and her hubbie, and my hubbie can't remember I'll be able to remind them of their dreadful drunken dancing.

Hope I'll be ok over the weekend, have spent a couple of rough days just feeling dizzy and horrible and yucky so would need to be feeling better by tomorrow morning, though having to get up at 5am won't be making me feel all that great I can say right now.

Just need to decide what books I'm taking with me!

Guess who's driving license expired a couple of days ago but didn't realise until last night?

I haven't been driving anywhere at the mo anyway and won't have to for a week or so so I won't be breaking the law, but silly me for not getting the forms sent off!

Only got the new pics done on Sunday there and still have to get them signed, am going to get my wee sis to take them into work and get the dentist to do that, and I suppose I may give the forms to my mummy to post for me over the weekend as I won't be here (must remember to leave a cheque for it).

Can't believe I was that silly to not realise, but then it doesn't feel like I've been driving for 10 years.

Wonder what else is going to jump up and bite me on the arse this week?

They've been called Maisie and Daisie until we find out whether they are boys or girls, we use those names because it annoys people and it's fun.

Well they behaved themselves this past fortnight and I go back again in another fortnight, fingers crossed they'll continue to behave themselves and there won't be any problems.

Three more fortnightly visits and then I can get back to the normal check ups and the care and share thingy with my own doctor rather than the hospital so often, though saying that cause I'm carrying twins and have high blood pressure I'll probably still get a few extra hospital visits than a normal pregnancy, just depends on how my blood pressure goes and whether or not it turns into pre-eclampsia or not but so far so good with everything and though that niggle will continue to remain at the back of my mind it hasn't grown any further and remains just a niggle and I'm happy enough with that.

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That is all.

...after my last post.

Feel kinda drained and just really really really tired.

Apparently, according to everyone round me, I'm not resting enough - not sure how they've figured that out.

The only thing I do during the day is go to work, I sit on my bum most of the day in work apart from the odd jaunt about the office and a walk to Connswater everyday for something to eat or up the Holywood Rd, depending on what I'm in the mood for. When I get home I'm not allowed to do anything other than sit on the sofa and be waited on hand and foot. Now how is it I'm not resting enough?

Just because I look as if I haven't slept in a fortnight doesn't mean I'm not behaving which everyone naturally assumes.

Couple of weeks into my 2nd trimester and so far the 'blooming' stage hasn't hit yet. I'd like to know when it's going to show up as I might throw a party to celebrate it finally arriving!

I'll talk about my Mother-in-Law another day, I'm feeling quite down at the mo and thinking of her brings me down further and I'm not in the mood for that as I've no energy to be annoyed.

Hubbie is being wonderful, he's doing all the housework, he's doing everything he can to make sure all I need to do when I get home is either sleep, eat or watch tv and I'm very lucky to have a man like that as there are many out there who wouldn't give a damn, but there is such a thing as overkill and he's almost at the limit. He means well but he doesn't know how to give me a little space without worrying about me so much. He'll learn as the time goes on I suppose, or maybe he'll get worse if my dizzy spells continue as they have been or if the babies take a turn for the worst (so far so good with them, another appointment in the morning so fingers crossed they are still behaving themselves).

I should be leaving the office now and driving home but have just gotten suddenly tired, one of my curly-up moments as I call them, and I don't think it would be wise to drive just yet though I might sit out in the car until I cool down a little, the office seems to be really warm all of a sudden.

Will let you all know how tomorrow's appointment goes, hopefully it should be ok, there's still a niggle at the back of my mind but I'm trying to ignore it because everything has been ok so far.

See you all tomorrow xXx

I haven't been on much lately, that's more to do with the fact that all I've wanted to do lately is moan but didn't feel comfy actually moaning about it all, if that makes sense.

Loads of different things are getting to me, pregnancy being one of them and people's attitudes towards me, work is bugging the life out of me, and as much as I love my husband and as much as he means well he's driving me potty!!!!!

I'll say more about all of this stuff later, it's not really all that important or annoying it's probably just hormones making a big deal out of everything.

Hope everyone is ok and everything is going ok.

Talk later xXx

Yesterday morning I was making our nephew pancakes for breakfast (he stayed over Saturday night), next thing I knew I was on the floor after getting all light headed, horrible buzzing in my ears, throbbing throughout my body, and really bad shaking in my legs and arms.

I remember asking nephew to go get hubbie who had just crawled back into bed (he had to spend the night on the sofa cause nephew slept in our bed) and I remember that I wasn't going to be able to make it to the living room so I knew I had better just sit down where I was and the next thing I knew I was on the floor and hubbie was talking to me.

That's the 2nd time that's happened. The first time was the evening of the day we found out we were having twins. We were down home telling mummy and daddy, I was leaning against the fire hearth and apparently I started swaying, I don't remember being moved but mummy had grabbed me and shoved me onto the sofa, next I knew I had a cup of tea and some toast in my hands and I was being ordered to eat.

Really hope these aren't going to be a regular thing, not sure I could cope with them.

Felt myself going the same way this morning and I'm still really shaky and horrible feeling. Legs feel like they are going to give way at any moment so I'm trying to not move about too much just incase and I've said to the girl downstairs to keep checking on me incase I do another diving act but fingers crossed I'll be ok.

Chest infection. Went into work on Wednesday to do the wages and then came home again.

Was given my usual antibiotics and they've been helping a lot, just one more day of those and they'll be gone.

Haven't had the energy to do anything at all, not that I was allowed to do anything anyway.

Back to work on Friday after I was at the hospital for the twins and my fortnightly visits. They were ok with how things are going and got to hear both their heart beats which was really really odd, it still scares the life out of me thinking that I'm carrying two new human beings so I try to not think on it too much, but the sensation sometimes is overwhelming.

The only prob with the hospital visit is that my blood pressure was really high, something they were a bit worried about but after hooking me up to the machine that takes your blood pressure at regular intervals for however long they say it eventually came down to an ok level and they were happy enough letting me go home again. Not quite sure why it was hitting 140-something but as long as it came back down that's all that matters.

Back to them on the 16th Oct.