My Place

...well until the 27th June that is! but I promise between now and then I will not touch a drop of alcohol.

Very easy to do seeing as we don't have any family parties or anything happening for a while. Think I'll be able to do this no problem.

I make it sound like I've got a problem, i don't I just don't want to feel as bad as I did this morning, though can you really call it a hangover if you have a banging headache for an hour and then after that everything is ok?

Oh Dear Lord! What a night!!!!!!!!!

We all went to sis-in-law's house last night for a get together (my in-laws have some English cousins over at the mo) so we all got together for a few drinks and some chit chat and just catch up on everything cause though we've all seen each other through the week it hasn't been for that long.

Hubbie was working so I was there without him but the rest of his family were there and I still had fun, he joined us after work though so at least he got to have a bit of fun after all.

Niecey was distraught because the new boyf was meant to be coming to join us but he was too nervous to meet us all en masse, have tried explaining to her that meeting her family all in one go is a terrifying experience, I know I've done it, but she wouldn't or couldn't understand, he could've still come down and just took her out as he didn't have anything planned for last night but he wouldn't return her text messages or her phone calls. Dunno whether I want to give him a hug for being so nervous or slap him for being mean to my niece by ignoring her all day and night, though saying that she did hound him quite a bit if I was on the receiving end of her texts I wouldn't have replied either.

I had Lambrini with me, was really in the mood to drink Southern Comfort, was too hot and sticky for something heavy like that and though Lambrini would be a lightish kind of drink that would suit the weather, boy was I wrong! Hubbie had bought me 3 bottles and each bottle was 33% extra free so basically I had 4 bottles. I drunk most of what I had and then had to stop I was blocked. Completely and utterly pissed!

To prove how drunk I was I actually got up and danced, something I never ever do in my in-law's company, not sure why think it's more to do with the fact that I'm nervous letting myself go around them which is ridiculous cause I know them and love them but I can't help it. No-one got photographic evidence of me dancing so they can't prove it. It'll go down in history though!

We finally left sis-in-law's house about half 2 this morning, I was in bed for just after 3 and up at half 11 though I kept waking up inbetween those times.

Boy did I feel rotten this morning!!!!

I never get hangovers, ever but today was different so I've sworn off Lambrini for good, am better sticking to Southern Comfort, Vodka, Rums, and Jack Daniels I think I've never had a hangover drinking those, and I can drink quite a lot of them too in one session!

Am completely shattered at the mo but am not tired if that makes sense, tomorrow though will be an absolute killer.

Was a brilliant night though.

Tonight there will be a bit of a baking frenzy going on in our house, decided I was going to bake my parents-in-law a cake for their anniversary but still haven't a notion what kind of cake I'm going to make. Was thinking of baking a couple and then seeing which one looked the best and that would be the one I'd give them but dunno yet.

Coffee Cake, Victoria Sponge, Chocolate Cake, or Madeira Cake?

There's plenty in the house to make all of those cakes but I'll be doing a quick scan through my recipe books and seeing if any other cakes catch my eye and of course I'll be looking at the bbc good food website for some inspiration, I love that site!

So it's tonight and not last night like I had originally thought.

Well it was an easy mistake to make seeing as our exams are usually the same nights as we have the classes but this time apparently not.

I did check yesterday afternoon with the teacher about the time and all that for the exam so at least I didn't go down to tech last night and wait for it starting, if I had I would've gotten a completely different exam paper.

So had another day to worry and panic about it but I know that I can only do what I can do, no point worrying about what I'm not able to do until I see what the paper will be like and then after it's done there's no point getting worked up about it as it'll be over and done with. Doesn't stop me running to the loo all day and my heart pounding like mad and my chest getting tight.

Can't wait until I get home tonight so I can curl up and watch some gorgeous wrestlers in their tight knickers grappling with each other, that always makes me feel so much better!

...and last night told me to get my finger out and sort it

think it takes a little more than just a finger for something like that to happen!

I know I threatened this before but tomorrow I'm determined to wear a dress and this time I mean it!

Am looking forward to the dinner tomorrow it should be fun and of course we'll all be going to bro-in-laws afterwards for a 'few' drinks, love that word few it covers a multitude of sins.

There will be much merriment made tomorrow and just about everyone is off on Monday apart from me which isn't fun but oh well. It's rare that I get a hangover so I'll be fine going into work I'll just be knackered but then I'm used to feeling like that so not much of a change there. I won't be driving to work I will be walking just in case and then hubbie can pick me up from work seeing as he's off and fingers crossed he'll then take me out for our tea.

Think I'll be drinking Lambrusco tomorrow, I know it sounds weird but I get drunk quicker drinking Lambrusco than I do drinking Southern Comfort or Vodka, my lot can't understand that but it's not something I drink all that often so I'm not used to it whereas if I'm out Southern Comfort is my drink of choice and I'm used to drinking that, have been drinking that since I discovered it at 18. Could do with a new bottle of that actually must add that to our next shopping list or maybe get a bottle next time we're in Makro.

We're going to the place we went for hubbie's birthday so it's going to be good food, good company, and lots of fun.

Patton staggered home very late after another evening with his drinking buddy, Paddy.   He took off his shoes to avoid waking his wife, Kathleen.

'Well,' Kathleen said, 'it could be the open front door, it could be the broken glass at the bottom of the stairs, it could be the drops of blood trailing through the house, it could be your bloodshot eyes, but mostly ..... it's all those plasters stuck on the hall mirror.

Hubbie is flailing his arms about in his sleep again and been hitting me a whack.

He's feeling really really guilty about it but he's not waking me up (I'm a real heavy sleeper), he's not leaving marks, and it's something he does in his sleep and he can't help it. I grind my teeth in my sleep and make weird noises but I'm not apologising for that.

I'm getting a new cd out of it anyway so not such a bad thing him doing this, but it's his guilt buying me the cd and not because he wants to which is a bit neh.

He twitches really badly in his sleep, he usually does this when he's half asleep just drifting in and out but lots of people do that, infact I don't think I know anyone that doesn't twitch in their sleep but the arm thing am not sure why he does it.

If it gets worse I'll just have to tie him up, but he might enjoy that...

...at the mo the power is on but we've been warned it could go off again without warning so neither CD nor I have our sage open just incase.

We just sat for an hour and did nothing, all the guys had something to get on with that didn't involve computers but CD and I couldn't, if we don't have our computers we're basically very stuck and without anything to get on with.

There are some lights not coming on in the office though, like the kitchen, the toilets, and one of the lower offices so that means no coffee!!!

If it's going to go off again I just wish it would hurry up and get it over and done with because I'm not sure what I can start into doing with the power cut threat looming over us.

Wonder if we'll get to go home or is that wishful thinking?!

I don't like the colour green. I don't like the damn euro. I don't like Irish vat. I don't like damn receipts. I don't like whoever is in charge of the Irish vat down south. I don't like it at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have spent I don't know how many days going through 2 years worth of euro receipts to get 2 years worth of irish vat returns done and I now hate the colour green cause all the vat returns are in green, even the words are printed in green.

Am nowhere near finished. Am having to get the accountants to check something for me cause I don't want anymore problems than I have at the moment in here and I just want it over and done with.

Lots and lots of swear words going round my head at the mo and I just don't know which one would be best to use to describe what I'm feeling.

He's ringing them at lunchtime to see about courses for car mechanics.

His whole family always say they don't know why he didn't do an apprenticeship with a mechanic he's that car made, and now he's 35 he's going to do something about it.

Am proud of him, but not looking forward to hearing all the stories over again from mummy-in-law about how fascinated he was and still is about cars, how he should've been a mechanic etc and all that. I'll sit and listen to it all over again  no matter how I fed up I am hearing it because I love him and someone has to listen to her or she'll keep repeating it until someone does listen.

Wonder what he'll find out, what tech he'll end up going, and wonder if he'll feel tempted to give up his job in the future and pursue it further.

Will support him no matter what but hopefully he'll wait until we win the lottery 1st!

Am having to wear sandals today, my left foot has gotten a sort of rash thing round my toes and thought it would be best to let the air at it for a while,  but my feet are foundered!!!

Shame my office isn't the other way around or I'd be able to sit with my feet under the radiator instead of me facing away from it.

...I'm a fortnight away from finishing my HNC and already I'm looking for courses to do in September!

Must need my head looking at!!!!

Was thinking of doing a typing course, it's ok to say that I can type and do everything that the course tells you to do but now-a-days you need a bit of paper that says you can do all these things before anyone will believe you.

Think I've found a course in the Newtownabbey Tech but think I might wait till closer to the time and give both Belfast Met and NRC a call and see who's got what typing courses going and weigh up the options, could see me staying with Belfast Met though just cause it's closer, but we'll see.

Really must need my head looking at, you'd think after all the stress and strain the HNC put on me and still puts on me I'd want to avoid tech for a while!

on Eurovision.

Was going to say how random, but it's Eurovision everything is random!

A big red haired woman, singing quite a good song. Somehow I'm comfy with that!

She was very good, hope she does well.

Graham Norton was right, Sweden should've kept some money back for make up, she looks kinda crazy!

Brilliant mezzo-soprano though.

Who's watching?

I am, not sure why though am finding it hard to watch Lithuania's singer, especially as I wasn't expecting to hear a girl singing, well he is called Sasha.

Maybe the voting will be a bit fairer this year with the judges voting also, maybe we will have a chance instead of being ignored for political reasons like we have been in recent years.

Crappy start to the morning with me trying to break my neck coming down the stairs.

Was up to my eyes in work, can't get my head round the Irish Vat stuff and the returns I'm meant to be doing, it's taking me forever and the accountant isn't that helpful, if anything he seems to be putting more problems in my way instead of helping me get through the hurdle I'm at at the mo.

CD is still off on holiday, she's back on Wednesday, and the other girl in the office keeps asking me if I've time to help do some of the stuff that CD should be doing, but no-one seems to be interested in the fact that I need some help, they just assume that I can manage by myself. Hate that.

I've brought some of CD's work home with me so will be tackling that tonight or tomorrow just to get the other side off me for a day or two, at least I can put it down as overtime so that's not too bad.

When I got home from work last night the heating wasn't working, tried everything I knew but without any luck. I sent a text to hubbie to let him know and he had a look at it when he got home from work. He couldn't get it working either so had to ring the landlady and let her know.

Took hubbie and his da to the buffs and hubbie rang to let me know the spark would be there at 9pm, he arrived after 10, he was nice enough and got it working, all he did was push a silly damn button and it worked! So unfair that it was that easy but at least he has got it working, and he even set the time clock for me as well cause I just couldn't figure out how to do it. I did get instructions from one of the suppliers we use in work who sell the time clocks but it wasn't the same one, or else they've just been updated since we got ours put in and it didn't make any sense whatsoever. It now comes on before we get up in the morning, and is on for us coming home at night which is good so at least something good came out of last night.

Still a crappy day yesterday though and the stress and strain I've been under this week is catching up with me as I feel completely drained and knackered today, I've a headache starting and it's going to be a massive one, and all I want to do is sleep, but that's not going to help me one bit.

One the plus side, hubbie got his car back from the garage yesterday morning and his car is now on the road again working and driving perfectly. I have my car back again so that makes it even better.

...I almost fell down the stairs this morning.

I'm meant to start work at 8.30am but because I was shaking so much I wasn't able to walk never mind drive to work so it was 9amish before I got there, thankfully I only work more or less around the corner from work.

Not sure how I managed it, dunno whether I lost my footing, or whether my legs gave way, or if I slipped or what. I didn't land on the stairs which I'm happy for, have done enough damage to myself falling down the stairs and don't want to hurt myself again, though saying that I did brace myself for the impact and have hurt my back that way, but that's mild compared to what would've happened if I had fallen.

Can't seem to concentrate on anything at the moment and that's really bad cause I've so much vat stuff to do today (UK and Irish vat) that I can't afford to have a wandering mind.

Am going to knock a couple tablets into me to help with my back and see how I get on. Have been ordered by hubbie to go home if things get worse but am kinda scared of our stairs right now and home wouldn't be the best place for me!

Things would be easier if I had a laptop instead of a pc, that way I could've moved into a different office and sat on the comfy sofa and did my work or even one of the better office chairs in one of the downstairs offices, but oh well, will see how it goes.

Found out yesterday that I had passed the ethics part of the course, it took me a few months to find out the results cause the teacher never replied to messages left and emails but finally heard about it yesterday.

So just one exam in a fortnight and that'll be me, fingers crossed that I pass it, but I understand the stuff it's just remembering all the formulas that I'll have the problems with.

Tonight we'll be going through practise papers and last minute questions and help so will be listening as much as possible and taking as many notes as possible.

Going to one of the longest hours ever tonight!

...just returned GD's call and it looks like I'm back in the road band.

There's a practise on Thursday well not so much a practise as a chance to get measured for new uniforms, that means new hats, and maybe this hat will fit me for a change seeing as my last one was borrowed from a bloke and didn't sit right, though strangely it did fit ok.

Lots of walking to be done, I'm going to be shattered this summer!!

Will need to buy a pair of decent shoes for walking in. Must visit Clarkes.

Sounds silly but it really is warmer outside than it is in the office.

Really embarrassing welcoming people into the office of a plumbing and heating firm when the office is cold, typical I suppose, we can fix everyone's heating but our own!

The delivery guys rang me at 10 to 8 this morning to tell me they'd be about 2 hours. They will be giving me a call about 10 mins or so before they arrive which gives me plenty of time to get out of work and be at home waiting on them arriving.

Am all excited!!!!!!

The cats are up in the front room at the mo, tearing the place apart by the sound of them when I left this morning, so no need to worry about them getting trampled under foot or tripping the delivery guys up the way they do to us so that's one less thing to worry about.

Suppose it's only roughly an hour before they're here. Wish the boss would hurry up and get into work so I can let him know I've to skive off for about 20-30 mins shortly.

My plans for the gym today:

20 - 30 mins (at least) on treadmill alternating speed and incline
20 - 30 mins (at least) on bike
10 - 15 mins on the arm pedally machine (not sure of it's name)
20 - 30 mins (at least) on the cross trainer
4 x 15 reps on weights for arms and legs
finishing with another go on the treadmill and maybe the cross trainer

Will be focusing mainly on my arms today as I want rid of my bingo wings! I'm only 26 and already I'm in danger of having the arms of a granny, not good.

Not sure how well I'll stick to the plan cause my chest was bad this morning, and though it's calmed down now once I get outside into the wind it'll flare up again, but will just take things slow and knock a couple puffs into me before I start everything.

Just incase my chest does get tight and wheezy I've already said to hubbie he might have to pick me up from the gym, he'll be driving about the area for work anyway so he can just nip down  no problem, if need be I'll even come on a delivery with him.

Am kinda looking forward till tonight, and I never normally look forward to doing exercise, infact I'm the girl that's usually hiding when someone suggests doing something physical!

Can I blame Megan as she was the one who mentioned Christmas!

The Christmas card company are just off the phone with me and are going to send me details over by fax. The company we get diaries from pens from at Christmas are also contacting me and I got a sample in the post of what they want me to order this year.

It's the start of it and I'm going to be tortured!

That's what I'm getting done at the mo, bugger all.

Looks like a late night for me tonight as I'll have to take the stuff home and see how far I get with it. That's the bad news, the good news is that I get to put this down as over time!

Guess we won't be staying too long at mummy-in-laws tonight or maybe I'll just see if hubbie will go himself and let me stay in the house to get stuck into the bank statements and the horrible searching through them for stupid payments that would be so much easier to get the bank to do but they don't have that kind of report available. Stupid bank.

Head's banging as it is think I'll be taking quite a few more before the night is through, either that or reaching for a bottle of something, a drink will be well deserved I think.

...I have masochistic tendancies according to her apparently and I've put the image of my husband wearing a pair of my knickers into her head. Serves her right for telling me she's dating someone old enough to be her father!

I've 2 years worth of irish vat returns to do cause some arsehole down south screwed something up and I now have to do them all in one go and have them back to them within the fortnight, plus I've a UK vat return to do. UK vat returns are easy, it's the making sure my sage is updated is the problem for me.

I've a monitoring return form to do for my own company, I did the other company's return form a week or 2 ago and I'm waiting to hear if it's ok or not, last years was a complete mess and the equality commission kept nagging at me for something that I had no control over but still I got the blame so am dreading this one! At least my form should be ok to fill in, fingers crossed.

I can't see my printer at all. There are that many papers and invoices sitting on the top it's just disappeared.

There's meant to be a payment run today and I'm getting gurned at by people chasing me for money, when will they get it through their thick heads that I only write the cheques, I don't actually have anything to do with picking who gets paid and when, today is the day when people get nasty with me and it's got bog all to do with me.

I've to do some credit control myself, but can't chase a lot of people because of problems on jobs and I end up getting gurned at because something hasn't been done.

Just can't win today whether it's money going out or coming in!

Think I'll just hide and refuse to answer the phone. Must buy chocolate...

I don't want to go to tech tonight. I don't want to have to listen to a man (albeit quite a cute man) rhyming off a lot of numbers and formulas for an exam in June that I'll never need to use in real life.

I want to go home and sleep. Well I want to go home and get a shower 1st and then go to sleep, but all the same I don't want to go tonight I'm just not in the right mood for it!

Have to though, no other choice if I want to pass this exam.

It's not fair.

...for the fact that I want to dance.

I blame those gorgeous sexy men for me wanting to dance and make an eejit of myself, but I'm in work and I can't.

Just hope this feeling lasts so I can put some music on loud when I get home and see if hubbie will dance with me.

I should know better than to listen to Take That and Daniel Bedingfield in work, their music always gets me like this.

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Tomorrow hubbie wants to go to the Ulster Folk and Transport Museum tomorrow.

I've been there before, and I think he's been there before as well not sure on that, but he thinks it would be good to go together and of course he gets to see the lifeboat of some ship that he finds fascinating. Me i'm not that fascinated, I prefer the other side of the road in the Folk Museum I'm not that interested in the Transport side of it but he wants to go so I'm going to please him.

He has suspicions that I'm only going because he wants to and he's already asked me about it so I've had to deny this and say that I'm wanting to go because I'm intestered in it all and that I'm looking forward to it and not that I'm going because he wants to and I'm sure he still doesn't believe me but we're still going. At least he'll owe me one then.

We're taking a picnic with us hubbie is wanting jam sandwiches and I'm going to take a flask of leek and potato soup for me, made a large potfull tonight so plenty to take tomorrow. Other than that I'm not sure what we're taking but that can be decided in the morning.

Found a carton in Tesco. Not sure about it.

Very sweet and watery. Neh.

...and there's me out without my heavy coat so I can't go walking in it. Have an umbrella but only got my denim jacket and it's too cold to wear that and have a decent walk at the same time. Hubbie dropped me into work this morning which explains the coat choice; didn't have time to go hunting for my other one because he was rushing me.

Think it might be for raining all day by the looks of it and am hoping it does so when I get home tonight I can go for a dander in it! Hubbie is at work tonight so I can't get told off for it.