Each time I drink a glass of it or have it in my tea, I love milky tea, I end up with a sore tummy and always have to run to the loo. I'm not sure whether it's just a bad coincidence or if it's the milk that's doing this to me so I've decided to avoid it for a while and see how I feel.

Might try soya milk and see if that makes a difference cause though I can happily live without milk there are some cereals I eat that do need milk with them or else they're just hard going and never get eaten.

Have never tried soya milk so I'm thinking of this as an adventure. It's not that exciting I know but I need something to look forward to today!

...and I wasn't the biggest person there!!!

Very shallow of me I know, but I was all pleased that I wasn't the biggest person in the gym.

Spent an hour there and though I spent most of the time on the treadmill I did use a few of the other machines and also some of the weights also, though with the weights I concentrated on the leg ones most - I want my legs back to the way they were so when I wear sort skirts they're my best feature again!

Was knackered by the end of it and thought my legs were going to buckle a few times (I've dodgy knees) but I managed ok. Am ok today, no aches or pains I knew how hard to push myself without going overboard the way hubbie does when he's at the gym, if you push yourself too hard and are hurting the following day then how on earth are you going to pluck up the courage to go again.

Am going tomorrow night after work and hubbie will be picking me up or I might walk home, depends on what time I finish doing everything at. Must remember to pack my bag tonight for tomorrow!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Someone rang at teatime last night to do a follow up call to see why we weren't going to join them and hubbie told him that he wasn't happy with how the girl handled the call on Sunday and that she just kept pushing for the contract and wouldn't discuss the other options etc etc and the guy last night gave him more info on the gym and the packages they offer than what the girl did so we went down and joined.

Am feeling knackered already!!!

£21.95 per month and the only class that costs to get into is the thai boxing class as it's not covered on our package, whatever that is.

We've got the free bags, the free earphones, and a t-shirt or something and we should be getting our membership cards tonight when we go down after tech.

I know it's easy to say we'll be going regularly, but seeing as I only work not even half a mile away from the place and it'll take me 10 mins or so to walk over then I will be going as often as possible and I look forward to it, I need to shift the tummy I want to wear my gorgeous red dress again! but I am worried about losing my boobs, I love them!!

Last Sunday when we went to hubbie's parents for our lunch mummy-in-law gave me her memory card to print off some pics in work, well she didn't give me it she handed the camera straight to daddy-in-law to let him sort it, it's her camera but he has to do all the work for it.

He left it sitting on the sofa beside him the rest of the visit and it was still there when we got up to leave as we saw daddy-in-law move it back a bit so it wouldn't fall off the sofa when he stood.

We took the pics up on Tuesday night along with her memory card and that was that, another good deed done. On Wednesday I got a frantic phone call to work from mummy-in-law asking did I see where daddy-in-law had put the camera; they'd lost it. My story matched daddy-in-law's story so she stopped shouting at him for losing it and just plain started to worry about where it had gotten to etc etc.

Was talking to bro-in-law yesterday who said he'd found it in his house yesterday morning when he went to the bag that the kids had over at mummy-in-law's last week and there was her camera. When mummy-in-law was packing their stuff in the bag to take home she'd put her camera in it also.

Of course it's still everyones fault, nothing to do with her, we've all got her in such a tizzy she doesn't know what she's doing apparently.

At least it's been found now, but bit of a nightmare week each time we were talking to her because she started on daddy-in-law each time about losing it. Didn't help things on Saturday night when bro-in-law asked his mummy if she wanted to take a pic of him and the kids with her camera, if we were anywhere else but in a restaurant I think she might've thrown something at him!

Mystery solved though.

Looking forward to getting our new sofa can't wait to sit on something that won't have both hubbie and me squashed up against each other, though that's not a bad thing to be honest we like sitting close to each other.

We will be having a welcome to the family party for the sofa, basically it's an excuse for a drink and for everyone to get together and an excuse for me to do some baking which I always look forward to.

11th May and our new sofa will be here!!

£24.95 per month on contract and £35 something for no contract per month.

Hubbie wasn't happy with what they were offering and to be honest I'm happy enough to go along with what he has decided to do. Think we're just going to go to one of the local leisure centres tonight and have a nosy which would be better to do I suppose seeing as there's a swimming pool there as well as all the gym equipment.

Think it was the admin fees and the little bits and pieces that hubbie wasn't happy with, and the girl from Fitness First kept pushing for the contract and we didn't want to get tied into a contract with them as if we wanted to leave it's really hard to get out of it without it costing a lot more.

Their offer at the mo of no administration or joining fee isn't as good as it sounds especially as it costs more per month than it normally would so they get the money out of you no matter what.

So we're going to go to the Robinson Centre tonight I think and there's another leisure centre near the house somewhere, need to get the map out cause we weren't aware of one being that close and we'll look at it if not tonight then on Wednesday as I've got tech tomorrow night and it might be too late to go see it after class.

Just got these in an email:

What are 3 things you've got planned for today?
- food shopping
- clothes shopping
- baking a birthday cake

Are you registered to vote?
- yes

What is your favourite thing to do on a rainy day?
- go out for a walk, I love walking in the rain

When was the last time you were sick?
- I wasn't well this week with a bug that's going round work, though I've got it quite mild compared to a few others in here

What is your favourite colour to wear?
- either purple or red

When hanging around the house do you wear shoes, go barefoot, wear socks or wear slippers?
- I usually run around in my slippers until I get told off or until my feet get cold then I'd put slippers on

...and hubbie has chosen a coffee cake for his birthday cake so that's what I'm making for him. Of course I have the candles for him to blow out and I'm going to see if I can get him a badge today to wear when we're out tomorrow night and maybe a hat as well just so everyone knows it's his birthday.

I know he's turning 35 but I want to make a big deal out of it as he's a bit grumpy at the mo (but then what's new with that!).

It would embarass his if I got the restaurant to bring something out to him infront of everyone else so not doing that, will just do my best to make sure he has a fun time and then on Sunday we're spending a few hours together in the park with a disposable barbeque and a few sandwiches just to get out of the house and be together.

Have gotten him a back massager thingy that you can use in the car or just use on a seat in the house and a book of guitar chords as he thought about taking up the guitar again but not sure if he will or not, will see about that one but he has the chords when he's ready.

Am going to see if I can get him a new book or two today when I'm in Bargain Books, there's no other book shops unless I go into town and won't be able to do that until tomorrow possibly not sure yet but just incase Bargain Books usually have a good selection of autobiographies and that's what he likes to read so will be sorted hopefully.

Just need to get some wrapping paper, and a party hat or two and maybe see what else Connswater has that might do.

...beat her to the bit about the paedophile who got a bullet in the rectum but she did get the murder/arson gossip first.

Totally unexpected but she does work in a hospital lab and gets to hear about who's getting operated on or who's brought in etc.

The guy who got the bullet was too fond of young boys and though I do not wish this kind of treatment upon anyone, he deserved it for what he had done (and yes it was proven that he did do what people thought he had done, best friend's mum works in a police station and the officers told her when she asked).

 

1.  Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead.  Do not  walk ahead of me, for I may not follow.  Do not walk beside me for the path is narrow.  In fact, just piss off and leave me alone.

2.  Sex is like air.  It's not that important unless you aren't getting any.

3.  No one is listening until you fart.

4.  Always remember you're unique.  Just like everyone else.

5.  Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

6.  If you think nobody cares whether you're alive or dead, try missing a couple of mortgage payments.

7.  Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes.  That way, when you   criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

8.  If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.

9.  Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day..  Teach him how to fish and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

10.  If you lend someone £20 and never see that person again, it was probably well worth it.  

11.  If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

12.  Some days you are the bug; some days you are the windscreen.

13.  Don't worry - it only seems kinky the first time.

14.  Good judgment comes from bad experience ... and most of that comes from bad judgment.

15.  A closed mouth gathers no foot.

16.  There are two excellent theories for arguing with women.  Neither one works.

17.  Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving.

18.  Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

19.  We are born naked, wet and hungry, and get slapped on our arse.  Then things just keep getting worse.

20.  Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.

1. When showering, do you start the water and then get in, or get in then start the water?
- I put the water on first because our shower is tempermental at times and can either freeze you to death or scald you badly if you're standing under it and then turn it on.

2. Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle?
- Yes.

3. Do you moan in the shower like the people on the Herbal Essences commercial?
- Have never felt the need to.

4. Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex?
- Yes.

5. Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?
- No but my sis and me used to share baths when we were toddlers, does that count?

6. Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
- Can't remember.

7. Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?
- Don't use soap I use shower gels and body scrubs.

8. How old do you look?
- Am too afraid to ask someone incase I don't like their answer.

9. How old do you act?
- I've been told I act older than I am but when I'm out and again with the youngest nephew I'm a big kid cause I can get away with it.

10. What's the last song you sang?
- Somebody to Love - Queen.

11. Have you recently become a member of anything?
- Does the WHSmith club count?

12. What are your plans for the weekend?
- Saturday I'm getting my hair cut, taking youngest nephew out for his birthday taking other nephew to Forbidden Planet, meeting hubbie for lunch, going out Saturday night and then Sunday hubbie and me are going for a picnic for his birthday just the two of us.

13. Do you kiss with your eyes open or closed?
- When I'm kissing hubbie it's eyes closed.

14. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice?
- Didn't realise there was anything sexy about her.

15. Does anything on your body itch right now?
- I didn't have an itch until I read this question.

16. Who's the sexiest famous woman alive?
- Nigella Lawson - she can eat whatever she wants and men still adore her figure

17. Who's the sexiest famous man alive?
- hubbie of course!

18. Does every family have a crazy uncle?
- Plenty of crazies in my family just no crazy uncles that I'm aware of.

19. Have you ever smuggled something into your home country?
- Ninja throwing stars from Turkey a present for my best friend who adores them.

20. Does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive?
- No, I prefer a piano player, the things they can do with their hands!

21. Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
- Belfast Giants Ice Hockey Team - they are pretty good

22. Have you ever finished off the popcorn and ate the junk from the bottom of the bag?
- It's a must.

23. Have you ever had sex in a tent?
- Nope.

24. What about in a boat?
- Nope.

25. Have you ever dated a Goth?
- No.

26. Can you fix your own car?
- Nope, that's what a girl's Daddy is for and that's the reason why I got married, to have a man to fix my car if my Daddy can't do it for me

27. Are you a beach person or a snowy mountain person?
- Snowy mountain - love snow!

28. If money were not a problem, where would you like to live?
- Am quite happy where I am, but would like a house that gives me my own library/music room so I could put a baby grand piano in it, well if money wasn't a problem I'd be able to afford the baby grand of my dreams!

29. Soft bed or firm?
- Inbetween.

30. Last thing received in the mail?
- Letter from the bank thanking me for changing my address though I thought I had already changed it in September and when I checked on Friday I found out the stupid idiot in the call centre didn't actually do everything he had said he had done.

...we have a built in vac in work and the pipe runs along the inside of my office wall and I'm sitting here listening to everything tumbling along the pipe, some weird noises and I'm wondering what on earth the cleaner is lifting with the vac downstairs.

Would love an inbuilt vac for our house, that would be a luxury that way we'd just need to haul the hose about instead of the whole vac, might make me more willing to clean the floor more often as well!

Maybe if I win the lottery one day and get to have the house that I want I'll get one installed, until then I'll keep dreaming.

Not sure. Got the other company's monitoring return form completed, so that's that one done for another year, and I got my own one in the post yesterday so that's due in a couple of weeks time but am in no hurry to sort that out just yet.

Printed off and enveloped a whole load of hello letters, bit of a nightmare that was and it took a few hours to do, but got it done eventually, not my favourite thing to do.

Now the office is so warm it's unbelieveable, why can't it get this warm during the day when we're all freezing, doesn't make sense at all!

Think I'll walk home, can't stick the heat in here much longer, and the way I'm feeling at the mo I would be better off home that I would be sitting in here.

I'm sorry but I'm afraid it'll have to happen.

If she tells me one more time that her grandson (C1) is a diabetic and tells me how to look after him I will have to swing for her.

She thinks she's an authority on diabetes because her mother was a diet controlled diabetic and her own doctor threatened her with diet controlled diabetes if she didn't lose weight. If she tells me one more time how she panics if she doesn't get C1 his lunch or tea at the correct time I will hurt her and I'll do it with a manic grin on my face.

I'm sorry but I've a father that is an insulin controlled diabetic, I've looked after him since I don't know what age if my Mummy was at work or if we were out together, it's me that makes sure he gets something more than toast to eat if Mummy isn't at home (it's the only thing he can make without burning beyond recognition). When his blood sugar drops I know what to do, if his blood sugar goes sky high, I know what to do. I've had to bring him round when his blood sugar drops so low he passes out. I've dealt with him being dizzy and being outside in public. If I can do all that and know a hell of a lot more about it than my mother-in-law, why the hell does she insist on telling me each time!!!!!

I can appreciate she worries about C1, we all do he was diagnosed about a year and a half ago and is nowhere near stable yet, but he's still a normal child that likes to normal things, he likes to go out and play with his friends, he still loves to run about and play football etc, he's diabetic that's all, he hasn't changed that much no need for the damn cotton wool to wrap him up in.

She told me five times last night why we're all getting the 5pm bus back from Haven in October and not the 12pm one cause of C1 and when he needs to eat. I know all this. All she had to say was we're getting the later one back and that was all. I didn't need a 20 minute speech on the subject and I didn't need told over and over and over again. I swear that woman is the cause of my high blood pressure.

I love my mother-in-law, she's a lovely lady but she seriously gets on my nerves. All I can do is sit there and listen, smile nod and agree when necessary, and then make a quick escape. She doesn't do this to hubbie, so why me? Does she do it because I know about diabetics and how to deal with them as it were and she feels the need to repeat all of this to let me know she knows what to do also? it's not like I rub it in that I know more about it than she does, if anything I don't mention it at all unless I'm asked and usually I'm asked by C1, not her or is she just a pain in the arse that I'm thinking she is?!

Am just glad I don't have to see her again until Saturday night.

...and so far so good.

Have 6 weeks of classes and then the exam, am hopeful about this time round, something I wasn't last time.

Will keep my fingers crossed.

That's the time I woke up at this morning and couldn't get back to sleep.

I'm not amused.

I've always known but have just avoided it, I'm now accepting it as fact and must do something about it.

The amount of clothes I threw out last night because I no longer get into them or that I've stretched because of my weight was ridiculous, I feel really awful about it.

I know my hubbie sat last night and told me that he loves me no matter what and I love him for it but if I'm not happy about it I'm not likely to listen to his reasoning not matter how sensible it is.

The nurse has pointed out that my weight is slowly creeping back on again, all that I had lost is becoming found again, and that I need to do something about it, I've to go see her in June about it and see what progress I'm making, suppose in a way this proves that my blood pressure isn't weight related as it's remained down even though my weight is going up so am pleased about that at least.

Was wanting to wear a dress to hubbie's birthday dinner but when I tried my favourite dress on last night I was ashamed of how I looked in it, my hips are almost wider than my shoulders and that's not a good thing, I didn't look gorgeous and sexy in it I looked dreadful and embarassing, all my confidence just went completely.

Have given up on the idea of wearing a dress and have decided to just stick to jeans and a top, maybe something strappy and low cut to try and make me feel better about how I look, if nothing else I've pretty impressive tits they've remained more or less the same size throughout the weight problems.

I'm disappointed in myself and shamed of myself.

We will be joining a gym, probably Fitness First though the thought of being surrounded by skinny people hardly breaking a sweat doesn't really appeal but at least it'll give me the motivation to do something and cause it's not that far from work I can walk over after I leave work at night and put in an hour or so until hubbie comes to pick me up though saying that hubbie's for joining also so it's a way for us to spend more time together and also do to something about his weight too.

Maybe getting my hair cut Saturday morning will help give my confidence a much needed boost you never know.

Need some nibbles ideas for Saturday night.

Strange request I know but I'm only good at providing a whole lot to eat and munch on and trying to decide on a few smallish bits to nibble on is hard for me!

When we all get back to our house Saturday night we will all have had a huge meal in us so I don't need to provide a lot of stuff to eat as we won't be needing it all, but what I do need to do is have some stuff to nibble on when we're having a drink. Will crisps and nuts be enough? There will be a birthday cake and of course chocolate brownies as they are a definite given when anyone is at our house I have chocolate brownies waiting on them.

That should be enough surely? I'm an awful hostess, I worry about the slightest little thing and hate entertaining, but once everyone gets there I'll stop worrying I hope. Just want everything to be right for hubbie's birthday.

The lights are now controlled by sensor. Much better for the environment and will be helping to save the electriciy bill also.

Blooming annoying though walking past the kitchen door and the light comes on, the sensors are very sensitive!

My back has just gotten sore again. I blame hubbie, it has to be his fault the way he was throwing his arms and legs about in his sleep last night he must've gotten me in the back again. I'm aware of him kneeing me up the bum and thumping the top of my head but I was awake then so I'm blaming him for the back just cause I can.

It's not even 10am yet and already I'd love to go home curl up with my hot water bottle and just sleep for a while and hope that it'll help my back somehow.

I'm a bit cranky also. My period hasn't arrived yet and it's 5 days late. I'm used to it being late, it never arrived when I thought it would but it's been behaving lately and arriving just when I thought it would and now it's late again. It throws me completely out of whack and puts me out of sorts until it arrives. Of course I'm wondering if I'm knocked up as well cause we're all going out on Saturday night and if I am then I can't drink. If it hasn't arrived by Friday I'll buy a test and see what that says but it's probably just being late to annoy me. Being a girl is not fun sometimes.

There was a spark doing some work in the office yesterday and he's taken the light switches off the walls in the loos and I'm wondering how to turn the light on now, might just use the men's loos as they've got a window so they don't really need the light on, but in the ladies it's needed cause you can't see anything! Fingers crossed I won't need to go for a while, unlike yesterday where I was running at least once every hour, but then it was cold in here.

He called an hour or two ago and said he was coming home.

He's got a pretty bad pain in his side (he swears I hit him during the night, but if I had I'd be gloating about it, so it wasn't me that hurt him), he's dizzy feeling and really tired. My 1st panic was his appendix was going but he hasn't said about it getting any worse, just that he needs to sleep and will see how he is this afternoon.

He isn't normally sick but when he is he goes all the way with it.

Hopefully he's sleeping at the moment, want to ring him and see how he is but don't want to incase I wake him up!

If the pain gets any worse then I'll take him to a&e, not sure whether his surgery does an out of hours service or not but will check that before we leave the house.

Fingers crossed he'll be ok soon.

...and I can't wait!!

Sad I know.

Won't be surprised if I get told off for it being sky high again. To be honest if it is high it'll be a relief cause then that'll help explain the way I've been feeling lately..

The appointment is for the afternoon so got plenty of time to kill, and afterwards I'm going to Mummy and Daddy's for tea, poor hubbie has to make his own tea as he'll just be coming home from work when I'm getting out of the health centre.

Looking forward to my Mummy feeding me again, it's been a while and it makes her feel better too, it's a Mummy thing.

The morning after pill costs £26.50 stg.

I know this because I had to go buy it for my niece today. The stupid wee girl decided to spend a few hours with her ex boyf last night and the condom split (well at least she was using protection at least). She didn't tell her mum  (AG) until after she'd gotten to work but had rang and told me before she told AG. Obviously sparks flew, especially considering she lied to her mother about where she was last night and that she had promised all of us that she wouldn't go near him again. She's lost an awful lot of trust both her mother and me had in her. No-one else in the family are aware of what had happened.

Now if her ex-boyf means what he says (he misses her, she still means everything to him etc etc) he should've been the one with her this morning, not me so if I get my hands on him I'm going to kill him never mind what niecey's father will do to him, and what her two uncles will do and her granda as well, though he's not as able anymore as he used to be.

We got Levonelle for her to take, bloody dear, she says she'll pay me back over the weekend, and to be honest I'm not too bothered if she does or not, I just don't want her being bloody stupid again, don't think my blood pressure could take it and I'm far far too young to be a great auntie!!!

AG is beside herself, she couldn't get out of work to be with her herself, but I'm not sure niecey would've told her about it if she didn't have to ring her this morning. She came to me so at least she had the sense to do that, but it was the only sensible thing she's done in the past couple of weeks.

Am dreading if and or when the men in the family find out, not only will niecey get the head pulled off her, AG and me are in for hell also because we knew and didn't tell them. Well we will face that if it does ever happen, but until then niecey had better keep her nose clean and stay away from boys for a long while.

Sunday:
Attempted to get drunk but mother-in-law kept making me cups of tea (she seems to think I would prefer that to a proper drink) so didn't quite get as drunk as the rest of them, but was giggly enough. One sis-in-law (CH) suggested drinking whiskey and lemonade, so the other sis-in-law (AG) agreed and the 3 of us ended up drinking a glass each. I like whiskey so that didn't bother me, the other two had problems with it but drunk it anyway. Think I may have a name for myself now that they've found out I like whiskey.

Sunday Night:
Hubbie and I had a falling out. Bit fed up with him making loads and loads of promises over various things, but always breaking them.

Think that's sorted now.

Monday:
Woke up with a bad back. I say hubbie is kicking me in his sleep again (he does that now and again when he's dreaming but doesn't realise) and that's why my back is bad but I could've twisted badly somehow or something like that and that's why it's bad. Got hubbie to clear out the kitchen cupboards and freezer for me to see what we have cause we're a bit skint for the next week or two so trying to live out of the freezer until I get paid again.

Tuesday:
Hubbie back to work. Back isn't so bad Tuesday morning, but have been ordered to do nothing anyway. Cue a day of sitting on my arse doing bugger all. Niecey rang and said she's coming down for a while that evening. I wash the dishes before she comes down and end up hurting my back further, how I managed that doing the damn dishes I dunno!

We bake shortbread, a couple of wee teddies ended up disabled cause niecey kept losing their legs and a couple of ears disappeared too so not only disabled but deaf as well. They tasted good though. After the shortbread we made some oat and apricot chewy bars as well so that'll keep me happy when I'm in a snacky mood the next couple of days.

Wednesday:
Spent most of the morning playing my ds, and after that I got up just before lunchtime and came down to sit on the sofa and mess about on the laptop and have been doing this more or less ever since. Have watched quite a few of the programmes I'd taped on sky+ but am fed up doing that now. The cat is curled up on the sofa beside me so I can't stretch out, though my legs are stiff from spending most of the day yesterday doing that so am kinda glad I can't stretch out. Back is as sore as it was last night so not amused about that and am being careful about what I'm lifting and doing about the house, but am getting fed up with that too.

Am running out of things to do!

Would sort out the wool I have in my wool basket but the cats will go mad, and apart from that it means lifting the basket up and a few other things to get at it so that's a no-no. Only about 2 hours until hubbie comes home so will be able to start on tea soon I suppose so that'll give me something to do shortly, just dunno what I'm making for tea though.

I can sit and watch each episode of M.A.S.H. as it comes on and not have to listen to hubbie gurn about me already watching something I've seen over and over again.

Plus I can sit and watch all the things I've been taping on sky+ the past week or two in peace and quiet.

Still going stir crazy though. The walls are closing in!!!!

The Northern Ireland Water Service have advised that we boil any water we use before drinking or cooking with it as there was a problem with one of their treatment works.

Great fun. That means I'm drinking tea most of the day then, just hope the milk holds out cause I'm not allowed out of the house (my back is bad at the mo and I'm meant to be behaving and taking it easy).

http://www.niwater.com/

http://www.niwater.com/siteFiles/resources/pdf/Boil%20Notice%203.pdf

Getting fed up already. It's only been 1 day and already I'm counting down the days until I go back to work!

Think I'll sleep for as long as possible tomorrow then after I get something to eat go for a dander or something. Maybe take a book with me and get a cup of tea in Connswater. MIght push the boat out and get something to eat as well!

Hubbie and I weren't in bed last night until after 2am, no special reason we were just watching something on tv but cause we were so late to bed we were very late waking up today, think it was near 1pm by the time we woke up. He got up but I stayed in bed to read for a while and before I realised Hubbie was getting ready for work to start at 4.30pmish.

After he left I came downstairs and have have lost the rest of the afternoon and now I'm realising it's near 9pm. We don't normally have days like these and I'm glad cause it feels like something is missing and nothing feels right. Not sure if that's a way to describe it or not, it's just an odd day.

Had toast for lunch, a couple of mini corn on the cobs for something to eat when I got up and have had nothing since but should eat shortly, just not sure what I am in the mood for though. Must hunt through the cupboards.

Having to use the ethernet cable to get online and it's seriously pissing me off!

Have done everything I know how to do, have followed all the instructions the laptop has offered and it's still not working. I've now gotten to a phone number which I can't ring until tomorrow cause I'm in no mood to listen to someone try and explain how to do something I've already done. Knowing my luck they'll be in a foreign call centre with a strong accent which means my accent will get even stronger and harder and then neither of us will be able to understand what we're saying.

Best to leave it until tomorrow till I'm in a better mood definitely, until then the ethernet cable is fine.

The Easter Friday Five!

1. How many Easter Eggs have you got already?
2! One was a bribe from a stationary supplier and hubbie brought me one home last night

2. Will you go to church over the Easter period?
We are considering it as my wee sis is playing the flute in church for the easter service but mother-in-law is expecting us up for our lunch and we might not be able to do both

3. When you think of Easter what is your first thought?
A week off work!

4. What is your favourite chocolate? White, milk, dark?
As much as I love white chocolate, I prefer dark sometimes

5. Did you give anything up for Lent??
I never do.

How To Be Gothic 

• You can never ever be a Goth without listening to Gothic music, because it is regarded as the very essence of the subculture. Go to a music library, collect the CDs of Post-Punk Bands, Batcave Era, Second Wave Gothic Rock, Deathrock, Ethereal Darkwave and Death Metal and listen to them. Try to absorb the music in your senses, because it is what ties the people of the subculture.
• The next thing important in Goth culture, after music, is fashion. They are real fashion buffs. Fill your wardrobe with everything that is black in color. If you want to add substance to your wardrobe, you can include deep rich colors, such as blood red, apart from black. Long sleeved black shirts or short lacy black tops will be suitable for the look. Make use of lace and antique-looking materials to accessorize your clothes.
• Never wear costume paint, to achieve the pale complexion of a Goth, because it looks horrible. Instead, mix white foundation primer with the foundation color of your skin tone, to get the desired pale look. Highlight your eyes with kohl, followed by a generous dose of eyeliner. To get the pointed look, extend your eyeliner out, to the side of your face.
• A Goth tends to be moody and maudlin. If you are a happy-go-lucky person, probably Goth is not suitable for you. If you want to stick to the idea of becoming a Goth, you need to develop the somber mood as well.
• Goths are addicted to reading. So, develop the habit of reading books. It will be better if you make a through research over the internet and learn what types of books are preferred by Goths.
• Join a Goth club, to mingle with people of the subculture. There, you will be able to talk to the people freely and share your views with them about the Gothic subculture and the prevalent trends.

I know I should be working but I found this how to guide online, just incase anyone desperately needed to know how to be a Goth.

Have been thinking about getting my hair cut for a while now, my last hair cut was 29th September 2007, the only reason why I remember this so easily is because I got my hair chopped off the day after my wedding.

It's now long enough that I can put my hair back into a bun, and as handy as this is for work I'm even doing this when I'm at home and no-one ever sees me with my hair down. Think I had my hair down once round Christmas time and everyone asked what was wrong with me, and someone even told me that I looked odd but they couldn't figure out why. Needless to say my hair went straight back up again after that.

At the mo I'm just thinking of a trim and a tidy up but once I'm in the hairdressers that could change and I might ask them to whack the whole thing off and go for the choppy bob sort of thing that I usually get on the rare occasion it's cut. Not sure yet. One thing I do know, everyone will be completely shocked once they see it!

Appointment is 25th April so that's the day after payday and then that night we're going out for hubbie's birthday which is the 26th, but going out on the Saturday gives everyone a chance to recover on the Sunday instead of having to go to work the following day.

I am going to attempt to make my own Hot Cross Buns tonight, and if successful I shall be bringing them into work tomorrow.

Am slightly nervous about this never having made anything that involves yeast, but I'm up for the challenge. If no-one eats them I shall just have to devour them myself and then of course make a bread and butter pudding using them also which sounds quite nice, especially with marmalade spread over the buns also.

Think I'll be closing my office door very very soon and huddling down under my cardigan (which is far too thin to fight the cold right now) and hiding the rest of the afternoon until it's home time.

Think I'll be bringing my thermals with me tomorrow just incase they're needed!

...and I've nothing to show for it other than a rumbling tummy and a messy desk.

Wonder how the afternoon will fare?

HOW TO TICK PEOPLE OFF

1. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 99 copies.
2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sexual favors."
3. Specify that your drive-through order is "TO-GO."
4. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.
5. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.
6. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."
7. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what you think."
8. Practice making fax and modem noises.
9. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc" them to your boss.
10. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
11. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with prophesy."
12. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears and grimacing.
13. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.
14. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.
15. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."
16. Staple pages in the middle of the page.
17. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a croaking noise.
18. Honk and wave to strangers.
19. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints at the cash register.
20. TYPE IN UPPERCASE.
21. type only in lowercase.
22. dont use any punctuation either
23. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.
24. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times.
    "DO YOU HEAR THAT?"
    "What?"
    "Never mind, it's gone now."
25. As much as possible, skip rather than walk.
26. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin. When nearly done, announce "No, wait, I messed it up," and repeat.
27. Ask people what gender they are.
28. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head like a parakeet.
29. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.
30. Sing along at the opera.
31. Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.
32. Ask your co-workers mysterious questions and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about "psychological profiles."

Rolf Harris hs done the art work for Michael Jackson's gigs at the O2 Arena.

As a thank you Jacko will be doing two little boys at the end of each show.

Remember how it tore your heart out when you broke up? Remember thinking that you'll never feel the same way again and that you'll be alone for the rest of your life?

Niecey is going through this for the very 1st time. She dumped her boyf yesterday cause he was being a bit of an eejit. I've only got her side of the story but when she went down last night she found out he'd handed his notice in in work and had already booked his flights to Cornwall to live and work, leaving next week. He hadn't told her. She dumped him and I'm glad she got in there before he could do it, at least she has a little dignity left.

She was out with her friends last night and think she'll be out with her friends quite a lot the next week while but think we're hoping for that more than her moping about the house each night.

Don't think I'd want to be a teenager again after seeing all this happen. Think I aged 10 years just talking to her on the phone before she went down last night! Knackering having teenagers in the family.

Hubbie rang this morning and announced that he wasn't getting his hair cut, yes it might've been annoying him but he's quite liking it now and he's gotten used to it curling round his ears slightly.

All I could do was say ok then if that's what you want you do that, but when it's really getting on your nerves do not moan infront of me like you do, you had the chance to get it cut. His sis was going to do it for him.

As soon as I finish talking to him I sent his sis a text saying he wasn't getting it cut now and could she use some friendly persuasion and if that failed can she pull the big sister routine on him and order him up to her house tonight to get his hair cut.

She rang him and gave him a bollocking! She just went straight to the big sis routine and he got shouted at.

Hubbie rang me back and was seriously cross with me about it. I got told off and though I tried to sound all apologetic and stuff i don't think I managed it all that well.

Oh dear! he he he

...bra shopping.

It's one of the worst things a girl can do, well I think so anyway.

I lifted a couple in the size I'm wearing at the mo to see how they would fit (we were in La Senza Saturday morning) I knew they'd be a bit tight as it was a couple of years since I was last measured and the bra I was wearing wasn't fitting all that well anyway.

If I'd worn the bra that I'd tried on I would've been arrested for indecent exposure!

Ended up having to be measured and I nearly dropped when the girl said I was a 38dd/e or even a 40 would fit. There was me thinking the boobs had shrunk but infact it was the complete opposite. The girl brought in a lovely white lacy 38e bra and it fitted perfectly, it was lovely, but I wasn't amused at all. i didn't want to be a bigger size than before, that means I haven't lost any weight, it means I've actually put weight back on again.

Anywho got 2 of the bras that were on offer (the 2 for £25) and of course the matching knickers and some bra extenders cause I find the backs are always too short for me and spent nearly £40 of hubbie's money.

Think I'll go back in when I get paid this month and buy the white bra she fitted me with, it was comfy and gave good support.

Still think bra shopping is one of the worst things a girl can do, no matter how successful the trip was.

Anthea Turner eat your heart out!!!!!

Yesterday I did the following:

• Washed every blooming dish and baking sheet we have in the house
• Got down on my hands and knees and ran the rubber bristled brush over the landing and stairs carpet to lift all the hair and dust that gets blown in the front door
• I washed just about every bit of clothing I could
• Washed, dried and ironed the living room curtains (not a pleasant job I can tell you!)
• Fed and watered the bottomless pit that is my nephew, I swear I spent most of my time yesterday cooking for him than I did anything else
• Ironed everything I could find
• Re-arranged and tidied the kitchen
• Scrubbed permanent marker off nephew's forehead and hands, got it off the forehead but not off the hands and he had the cheek to laugh while I was doing it little monster

Completely and utterly knackering day and my back is killing me now, but was so necessary and long over due, the next time I do the stuff it shouldn't be as bad.

We didn't get to the market on Saturday morning by the time I'd gotten everything ready on Friday night it was the early hours of the morning and I just wouldn't have been able to get up early enough so we decided not to go and will try for next week instead.

Hubbie rang his parent's to arrange a time to pick them up at and to let them know we'd be going into town for a couple of hours to get a few bits and pieces and mummy-in-law (mil) decided a picnic wasn't such a good idea as it was raining and everything was cold and wet. Now this was at 9.30 in the morning, we weren't going on the picnic until the afternoon but instead of arguing we just accepted it, but I was seriously not amused at all. All that damn work I'd put into it and nothing comes of it, there were swear words. Instead we took them to a couple of garden centres and then B & Q for a nosy at more plants.

Inbetween the 1st garden centre and the 2nd one we'd picked up Hubbie's nephew who was for staying with his Gran that night, but he decided he wanted to stay with me. I don't think mil was happy with this as her face just dropped and she was a little off the rest of the time we were out, so once we'd returned them home and got nephew's bits and pieces from his Gran we made a hasty exit.

We had plans to go out tonight to nephew's parents for a drink so it was a rushed hour or so getting us ready and making him something to eat and arranging with Hubbie's sis about going over also, her hubbie was working so we picked her up in the taxi and then headed over. Nephew thought this was great as he was going to his parent's house for a visit and then coming back with us.

We had a good night, had a few drinks, played on the Wii a bit and then home time.

Now I'd had a huge list of instructions from mil about how to look after nephew as it was the 1st time he'd ever stayed with us, I checked with his da before we left their house and he just said do whatever I wanted, I wasn't silly and didn't need told how to look after him and just to ignore mil (she has been acting a little odd lately, or maybe I should say odder than usual, more on this later) so when we got home after midnight, we ordered a chinese for hubbie, nephew and me. Nephew thought this was brilliant and he wasn't in bed until about 1.30am ish, but once he was in bed he just wouldn't shut up, he kept talking! The child was meant to be tired and in the end I told him to give over or I'll have to gag him which he thought was funny but by then he was having trouble keeping his eyes open.

Hubbie had to sleep on the sofa downstairs, the tiny 2 seatter which I can't even stretch out on and I'm only 5 foot 2ish so goodness knows what kind of night he had, and he's doing the manly thing and not admitting it wasn't a good night.

According to mil, nephew wakes up round 8 on a Sunday morning, it was near 10 before he shifted himself, it was me that woke at 8 and I just couldn't get back to sleep at all. Wasn't amused.

Any how breakfast was made, more pancakes (he'd had pancakes for his tea and wanted them for his breakfast again, he says it's because I make them from scratch which he prefers), and he played on the playstation with hubbie, he watched a bit of tv, we had to record road wars for him while we were out saturday night so he watched that. After his lunch he had to be left up at his Gran's as his da was picking everyone up to go out for something to eat and then back to his house for a couple of drinks, hubbie was working and I wasn't in a mood to go, was getting stuck into my housework and was afraid if I stopped I'd never get started again.

Was an interesting weekend, think mil has stopped huffing with me, but I'm not too worried if she hasn't to be honest, nephew does have parents of his own and if they were happy enough for him to stay with us and happy enough with the way he was treated and looked after by us then why should I be concerned about how mil feels about it all. Anyway hubbie is nephew's godfather so if anything happened to his bro and his missus we'd probably be landed with him cause I don't think parent's-in-law are up to the challenge, I know daddy-in-law is starting to feel his age, mil is just doting don't think the authorities would let her take the kids. If they'd any sense they'd put her in care also.

Ok that was mean of me but when you hear what she's been doing lately to her kids (all three of them, not just hubbie) then you'll understand.

Nephew has great plans to stay with us again next week, I'm off for the whole week for Easter and so is he, this should be interesting!

Sandwich fillings made and in the fridge, sausage rolls are cooked and wrapped up, and coffee cake is in the oven as I type.

Back is killing me! Am knackered and would love to go to bed but can't until the cake has cooked, cooled, and been iced and everything packed up and away from nosy kitty cats.

If they don't eat this stuff tomorrow I will have to kick up a pretty big fuss!!!!!

...and according to hubbie I'm backing a donkey but I love the name so that's why I went for it.

At 100 to 1 I know I've no chance but if I do win I'll get at least £100, unlikely though.

The windows in our previous house have been put in!!!

I'm serious lacking in details and I'd love to know more but our landlady isn't going to be amused with this as she still owns that house!

Am going to be trawling the internet for news reports to see if anything has been reported and might contact best friends mummy who works in the police station in that area to see what she can find out for me.

• egg and onion sandwiches
• tuna and onion sandwiches
• ham sandwiches
• sausage rolls
• quiche lorraine
• coffee cake
• crisps
• carrot sticks with dip
• cous cous salad
• chicken drumsticks in buttermilk, cumin, garlic, and maple syrup (sounds weird but tastes good)
• feta, cucumber and tomato salad

That should do shouldn't it?

We will be going to the market in the morning and as it's the food market I might end up getting something else to go along with it all but there's not much else really needed I don't think.

Might make some little victoria sponge buns with icing or something like that as well but not sure whether to bring them along or just give them to mummy-in-law for a cup of tea on Sunday when she has a few people round.

Has my mother-in-law killed him?! Has she pushed him down the stairs in his drunken state and done him in?!?!?!?!

There's always someone in that house, where the blooming heck are they!!!

Would be nice to see my desk again, especially on the right hand side.

Don't worry we are only going out for a couple of drinks. We've got work in the morning we promise it's only a couple. No we've only had a couple, we'll be over shortly.

That's what I heard last night. That's not what happened.

I don't mind them getting drunk, I really don't. It's having to listen to my mother-in-law gurn about it I have a problem with. She can't see daddy-in-law have fun at all. I know he's 71 this year and I know he can't seem to hold his drink anymore but that doesn't mean he's just going to go out and drink as much as possible and match the younger ones drink for drink. What she doesn't realise is that he was watering his drinks down last night to make them last longer and so he wouldn't be drinking as much as the other pair.

I dropped hubbie off at the pub to meet his bro and da that was ok. Took bro's birthday present round to his house and to say hello to mummy-in-law as she was minding the kids, sis-in-law was at work. After saying hello I went to get shopping, this was about 8pm, got back to the house round 9pmish and just as I pulled up outside bro-in-law's house hubbie rang to say they won't be much longer, they intend to be back for 9.30pm. Said it's ok don't worry, I can't go anywhere until they all come home anyway as I said I'd bring his parents home also.

Went in the house and mummy-in-law started. Think she was a bit miffed that they'd rang me and not the house. Half an hour later daddy-in-law rang to say they were heading over now, she laid into him over the phone and then he asked to speak to me think that annoyed her also but he knew I was bringing them home and he wanted to say sorry for keeping me so late, even when he's drunk he's always polite, told him it was ok and it wasn't me he should be apologising to.

They weren't back until well after 10pm. Mother-in-law was fit to be tied.

They call came in the house staggering and swaying, and bro-in-law kept giving hubbie and me hugs and kisses for his birthday present, now they are a huggy lot anyway but this was the drink talking definitely.

She complained and moaned all the way home about the state daddy-in-law was in and the other pair also. Thank goodness she was in the back and not the front or I would've gone crazy.

Dunno about the rest of them but my head was banging by the time I had dropped them off just listening to her.

Suppose I'd better ring them in a few hours to see how they are but I won't be looking forward to it at all. Infact I'm dreading it.

That's it I'm going to stop making plans. Every time I do something crops up or either one of us has an invite to go do something, so I'm refusing to make anymore plans.

Will continue to make my lists cause I love my lists and am slightly addicted to making lists, but after the lists are wrote no plans will be made.

and that's that!!

...instead of having our picnic tonight we'll be having our picnic on Saturday and we will be inviting his parents along, it'll get daddy-in-law out of the house cause he's going completely stir crazy since he stopped working, and we'll be seeing if the two nephews want to come as well, well one of them will  be staying with with hubbie's parents anyway so he's a given if they go, the other one we aren't that sure of.

I plan to make sure there's a football and I will be charging my batteries tomorrow during work so that my camera will be ready to take lots and lots of pics of hubbie knackering himself playing football with someone who's 7 years old. He's going to hate me by the end of it!

Tonight instead of going out hubbie has a chance of going out for a drink with his bro, dad and a few others. He said no to his bro because we had already made plans so I've told him it's ok to go out with them, we can do everything on Saturday that we were planning to do tonight. So that's all sorted hubbie is going out for a drink instead of going to the park with me but I don't mind that as he doesn't do this very often and I can't remember the last time he went out for a drink with his bro and everyone.

So I'll be going to Tesco or maybe Lidl depending on funds and getting the few bits and pieces I'll need for Saturday. We're inviting them out so I'm not expecting them to bring anything though if they have a large cooler bag or box I might nick it from them as we don't have one.

Must plan my picnic menu now!

We will still be going to St George's Market 1st thing Saturday morning so can pick up a couple of extra treats there so that'll be good.

Wonder if that's because I mentioned my boobs!?

Believe it or not, with the amount of work I need to be doing, and the desk I need to be clearing I'm bored.

The Big Boss is away now, not sure if he's coming back or not because he took his laptop with him and that usually means he won't be back, the other Boss from the other company is still out showing the Auditor round the sites, it's quiet in the office other than the girl downstairs shouting swear words every now and again and the heat would kill you in this place. It's a gorgeous warm day outside and the heating is still on full blast in the office, there was talk of turning it either down or off earlier but that obviously hasn't happened.

Would they notice if I took my bottle of water and sat at the front step for a few mins just to get my head cleared? Knowing my luck that's when the phone would go mad wouldn't it.

...we are going to Victoria Park to have a picnic and feed the ducks cause the parks close at 8pm tonight and it doesn't leave us enough time to get to the other side of Belfast to go to Lady Dixon park so that's sorted.

I will be going to Tesco, I have orders from hubbie as to what he wants and then we'll be going home to get changed and then out again for a dander and a picnic.

Am wondering what I should wear tonight, all I've got is jeans and work trousers, must see if last summer's trousers still fit me, they won't be ironed but who's going to notice as long as I keep moving. Think I'll definitely be changing my bra when I get home this thing is out to kill me today. Can't wait to get a new one on Saturday! this one will be going to the bin but think I'll let the cats play with it 1st since they seem to like my underwear at the moment.

Speaking of cats we know which one it is that's peeing outside of the litter tray, hubbie caught her in the act this morning, it's Tabby and there we were suspecting Gerswhin, so kitty treats are due I think in apology to her. Not sure why she's doing it but at least we know which one it is now.

It's been months and months since we last had a picnic together so am looking forward to this!

After work I will be going to Connswater to get the bits and pieces needed and then I should be ready for hubbie picking me up from there, then home to get changed and wrap bro-in-law's birthday present and then out to wherever it is we're going. Am going to go onto the Belfast City website and see what time the parks close at cause no point heading to a park that might still have winter closing hours we wouldn't get much time out.

Lord and Lady Dixon Park I think would be the best place to go, or else to Victoria Park to feed the ducks, am not sure will see what the website says.

Wonder what picnic goodies I can get in Tesco!

It's a gorgeous day out there and I'm stuck in work!

So unfair!!!

On a better note hubbie and I are going for a walk later on this evening, probably to the park so will be taking my camera and doing the touristy thing.

Hubbie is feeling a little delicate this morning, he went to the gym for the 1st time last night in I dunno how long and I think he's overdone it a bit in his excitement and his back is a little achy now so a gentle walk will do him some good, better than him sitting in the house stiffening up further.

Not sure whether before or after the walk we'll have to take his big brother's birthday present over to him, he's 39 today, dunno how hubbie can tease him about his age bearing in mind hubbie turns 35 in a few weeks time and he's much more sensitive about his age than his bro is.

Am looking forward to the walk tonight, it's been a while since we've been out anywhere that didn't involve shopping and there's usually a fight or two happens over that, so tonight should be some time together that we'll both enjoy.

Our cleaner in work just happens to know my hubbie and his family from a few years back (1980s and 90s) long before I appeared on the scene, and she knows hubbie from being in the same road band as him and today she brought in some pics oh him and oh my dear fucking god I am in shock!

Now I've seen pics of him from when he was younger, he has a lovely mummy who brought them all out for me one day, so I kinda knew what to expect but nothing could've prepared me for the state of him in these pics. If I hadn't seen them before I would never have realised it was him, he has just changed so much! Most of it is the weight gain, that's made a big difference in his appearance but still a big shock seeing those pics.

I have scanned them and emailed them to him to see when he's in work as I won't see him until he comes back from the gym, but have printed them also just incase he doesn't open his email.

Think I feel a bribe coming on, wonder what I can get out of him if I promise not to show my mummy these pics?!?!

Got up to Mummy and Daddy-in-law's as planned and talked to Daddy-in-law for a min or two before he called on Mummy-in-law to come downstairs. She came in and settled herself and then asked if we wanted a cup of tea. That was the start of it. The plan last night was to get our tea up there and Mummy-in-law had forgotten so she didn't have anything made for us at all. Hubbie had been talking to Daddy-in-law on Sunday and had arranged it with him and he says he did tell MIL but she's forgotten again, a row then started between MIL and DIL about who said what and what was said or not said. I spent the whole time in giggles cause they really are a comedy act when they start, really hard to take seriously.

They both fell out with each other and in the end MIL went in the kitchen in a huff cause she swears blind she didn't know we were coming up for our tea. DIL told her on Sunday, and said a couple of times yesterday that we were coming up and I think at one stage he even asked what was she feeding us.

That was them for the rest of the night, at each other's throats, but DIL spent most of his time winding her up and doing and saying things for badness.

Niecey came up, she brought the dog with her and we got to have a chat for a wee bit. She walked to the Co-op with me so she could talk to me proper (she's no longer the innocent little girl we took her for anymore and is now a raging nympho, I dunno how her boyf is going to keep up with her!), but she needed someone to talk to and that someone is me, I got told everything and I got asked questions etc. She's a little worried naturally about what she's done and what it means for their relationship and some other insecurities but she's being sensible about it all, taking the proper precautions and all that and promised to come to me if she ever has any problems or needs help with anything. Told her she could ask me anything, think I'll starting a sex advice column soon, Dear Mrs H.... how does that sound.

After talking everything through with me she admitted her Mum did ask her to say if anything happened between them that was more serious than just kissing and all that but she was kinda afraid to, I think she tells me things 1st so that she has someone who won't shout at her immediately. She knows I won't be easy on her and yes I'll tell her when she's being silly or stupid but my 1st reaction isn't to shout like any parent would, think that's the good thing about being an Auntie sometimes, I'm lucky enough to be able to give advice, listen when she needs to just get things off her chest, and I can tell her off without needing to shout and for some reason she listens to me. I heard her Mum telling someone the last time we were all together than I'm the one she listens to in the family, no matter whether I tell her the same thing as her Mum until I say it she won't believe it. Huge responsibility and quite scary sometimes but I wish I had someone in my family I could turn to instead of my Mummy the way niecey has. Would make things a lot easier!

Any-who, when she talked to her Mum she sent me a message saying everything is ok, so think I'll have to clock in with AG today and see how things really are I know she'll be doing her nut!