...he's been in baby mode, saying we should start trying straight away for one, and planning bigger cars and budgeting and everything!
He has always been broodier than me, I've no problem in admitting that I'm reluctant to have kids only because I'm terrified and not because I don't want them cause I do, but the thought of having something so small and dependant on me scares the hell out of me and I'm afraid I won't be that good at it, he doesn't understand this because he sees me with the nephews and other kids and acn't understand how I can get along and look after them so well and still be scared of having my own. Other people's children are ok because at the end of the visit or day I get to hand them back and they become someone elses responsibility, I can't do that with my own!
I know I'm fretting over nothing probably, well I hope I am, and I do want to have kids but I do wish he would tone it down a bit because I'm scared enough already and his bouncing about all excited about having kids is making me worse.
