Went for a visit this afternoon and I'm not long home and almost the whole time I was there I felt like a spare and completely out of place, hubbie wasn't with me as he was working so I can't tell him how I'm feeling especially as it was his family I was with. They did their best to include me but they always manage to start talking about something which excludes me completely and I end up just sitting their listening to them and keeping quiet and then someone makes a remark about how quiet I am but what am I meant to say to that? Sorry for keeping quiet but you are all ignoring me and not making any effort to talk about something in which I can join in instead you are all talking about stuff that happened years before I became part of the family.
I knew that there would be times when they'd talk amongst themselves and I'd be the odd one out but I would've thought that by now I've been part of the family long enough for them to realise that they're doing it, and I'm not the kind of person to say anything to them and they all know this.
I like spending time with them altogether but I'm beginning to feel like it's a chore going over rather than a pleasure.
If I did grow a backbone and said to any of them it would just start a fight and then it would be me that's the worst in the world, that's the way it works in the family.
