My Place

We have 2 cats, both got at different times but it's unbelievable how alike they are it's hard to imagine they never used to get along.

Both don't like my hubbie which is the main one I suppose! but he's the one that feeds them most and clears their litter tray so dunno why they should dislike him so much.

At the moment you'll find both cats lying on the top of something they shouldn't be like some of our clothes or on the top of the tv (that would be Gerswhin).

I wouldn't be without either of them though they can drive me crazy sometimes but I love them to bits!

He's the youngest in the family and it's all very weird feeling!

We knew this day would come, everyone gets older we know that but it's hard to accept when the person in question is your wee brother. He wasn't allowed to get older he was meant to stay my wee brother forever! Irrational I know but now that he's 21 it doesn't sound right calling him my wee brother somehow.

Am getting his present later after work but I need my Daddy with me as I need to put it against my Daddy's name, mine isn't allowed for this. I'm hoping he'll like what he's getting, I know he'll use it regardless because it's that type of present but I'm completely clueless as to what else to get him so I'm afraid it's either this or a big bar of chocolate and he's not getting anymore chocolate as he'll already have some for presents already.

Yeah me!

Surprised at myself though because I am not the kinda person to be so organised for something, I'm the running about like a headless chicken the day before we fly kinda girl and that suits me in a strange sort of way though hubbie would disagree.

Have to go find my list of what I need for the hol just to make sure I am organised because everything has worked out a bit too easily for me.

Not a thing!

It's not like I've sat on my bum all day and done nothing but I really have nothing to show for a day's work, don't like days like this.

I know that it's not necessary to have a big pile of papers to show that I've actually gotten something done during the day in here, I don't need to prove what I do, but for personal satisfaction it's nice to see what I've done during the day as I'm packing up to leave at night.

Wonder if that makes me fussy because no-one else in the office seems to care about things like that.

I make it sound like I'm a really big girl but I'm not, well not really I'm roughly somewhere between a 16-18 depending on what clothes shop I'm in, I'm happy with my size and I know I'll never be skinny but that's ok.

The reason why I'm having to lose weight is for health reasons, especially for the health problems in my family that I may someday have if I remain the weight I am or get heavier. Since the nurse put me on a plan and is offering help and advice and monthly appointments I've lost over a stone, I don't look all that different to be honest apart from my shoes are a bit too big on me and my wedding ring is a bit loose on me but that's all I can see.

I've lost enough to please the nurse and to lessen my chances of inheriting my family's health problems so that's a good thing but I'm happy the way I am so if I don't lose anymore I won't be annoyed I'll just be me.

I've lost weight!! Not that much but she's pleased with my efforts and I've lost 2cm from my waist so that's better than the actual weight loss for me, but if it gets any smaller I'm not sure I'll be able to support my top half and it might just topple over someday!

Well that was the good news, the bad news is my blood pressure is still far too high. She'll be having a word with the doc this morning and she'll let me know what'll happen about it. They could either increase my blood pressure tablet dosage by quite a lot because I'm on a lowish dosage at the mo or else they could help me lose weight faster to see if that'll bring it down any.

I don't know which way I'd prefer as long as something is done about it because I can't go about having high blood pressure it's beginning to affect both my personal and work life and I'm beginning to feel a bit run down with it all.

It's times like these you need your Mummy to talk to but mine is in work so can't give her a call! Will just have to wait until her break I think if I can remember when that is.

Oh well at least I had some good news today so it's not been a bad day so far.

that on a Wednesday if I'm not feeling good what with the blood pressure problem getting worse and all my weekly guys should just wait until Monday for their wages to go into the bank and not Friday like it is every week.

Think that would work? No I don't think it would either, nice thought though because I really should've have drove to work this morning feeling this way and I'm having serious trouble trying to keep sitting up when all I want to do is curl up in a ball somewhere and just let the feelings pass, and they will pass in an hour or so.

Have my nurse appointment tomorrow about my weight and she'll be checking to see if my blood pressure is still as high as it was last month, if how I'm feeling is anything to go by then yes it is but will see tomorrow.

Don't understand why my blood pressure is going up again, I'm losing weight, I'm exercising, I'm eating healthily but still it's going up, it doesn't make any sense and the nurse or doc can't tell me why it's going up, hopefully they'll be able to tell me soon because they'll have to do more tests again.

Think I'll close my office door and put my head down for 20 mins, the big boss knows how I've been feeling lately and what I'm going through but no-one else does and he's not here so let's just hope no-one finds me because I don't think they'll be in an understanding mood today seeing as half the office is out on a course and the other sides phone just keeps ringing and ringing annoying them. Not my problem but I'm sure I'll hear about it at some stage.

The man I work for has moved both his companies into the same premises, the company I work for is a bit more easy going, we're all more or less the same age and that's great, we've got a good working relationship and if need be we could tell each other to clear off and still be friends at the end of the day. The other company has a couple of people who have got a couple of rods shoved so far up their rear ends you can see it sticking out of their nose.

I was looking for one of the guys from the other company earlier, we tried ringing his office, we started shouting on him a couple of times and when he finally answered I asked jokingly if he was deaf while we were stil out in the store with a couple of the site guys about.

This guy has not long left my office asking me to never speak to him like that again infront of the site guys, he doesn't appreciate it.

Now anyone else in this company would've went 'What? What?' when you ask them if they are deaf but not him, he takes great offence and gurns at me for it.

So what am I meant to do? Because we're in the same building now it's not like I can avoid him completely and I will have to talk to him now and again but how do I know that anything else I might say might cause offence to his poor little delicate ears.

There's plenty about this man and what he says to me that aggrevates the life out of me but I don't take umbruge at it each time I get on with my job and ignore it. If I was talking down to him I would understand but seriously he's no better than any of the site guys so what difference does it make who heard me!

I always enjoyed watching wrestling when I was younger, when it was still called the World Wrestling Federation (WWF), boy is that a long time ago! but since I got together with my other half I've really gotten into it so much so I'm considering staying up until 3 or 4 this morning to watch the WWE Draft programme just to see what happens rather than hearing about it tomorrow.

Crazy? Quite possibly after saying earlier that if I don't get my 8 hours of sleep I'm cranky.

Dunno what to do, i'm torn!!!

I'm not the kinda girl that likes muscle men, those men who are all brawn and no brains but there is something about those wrestlers that grabs my attention.

There's just something about Triple H and the rest of the wrestlers that does it for me.

Hubbie despairs for me!

So I'm wondering what's in the cupboards for tea tonight.

Suppose I could raid the freezer but I'm not sure I could really be bothered to be honest because everything I like is right at the bottom. I keep the stuff hubbie eats at the top so he doesn't have to search too hard and doesn't moan when he can't find anything.

I'm not even sure what's in the freezer it's been that long since I've gone through it, probably should clear it out soon because there's bound to be something that needs thrown out or else used before it's past it's date.

We regularly clear our cupboards and fridge out but I wonder how often everyone clears their freezers out of the out-of-date stuff and stuff that'll never get eaten but got kept anyway just incase.

Starting to feel guilty now and I had better go through the freezer when I go home and tidy it up, will need defrosting soon anyway if we're for moving house in the next month or two just to make things easier for us.

when they're waiting on me to do things for them but when it's the other way round, forget it you're not as important as what I'm doing!

Working with plumbers isn't always fun and games I'm beginning to notice.

Half 2 almost 3 o'clock this morning he decided to come to bed at. This in itself I don't mind, I'm not his mother so I don't tell him when to come to bed.

The problem I have with him coming to bed at that time of the morning is that he managed to scare the hell out of me with the noise he was making whilst trying to be quiet and then proceeded to keep me awake with more noise and movement for another 40 mins or so.

Now I'm one of those people that needs at least 8 hours of sleep at night to function and he knows this but still he does this!

I love this man I really do, I mean I married him for goodness sake when we could've cheerfully continued on the way we were but I could really do without him at the mo, especially when he does stupid things at that time of the morning!

Hubbie contacted our landlady yesterday to ask if she had any other properties on the go and she will have one available at the end of July, she's going to keep it for us unless we find somewhere else before that.

We're just so fed up with the kids playing football and basketball next door until half 4 in the morning, we're fed up with them kicking the ball over 50 feet fences and it landing in our back yard and them thinking it's ok for them just to climb over the wall into our yard whenever they want, we're fed up with them thinking that they can do this whenever they want and then damaging my car or hurting our cat whenever we ask them as politely as possible to try and not kick the ball over our wall, we're just fed up with the abuse. We can only call the police so many times and they aren't able to help in any way other than to chase then in the early hours of the morning but that doesn't stop them coming back again another night.

So after we come back after our holiday we'll be moving house. Our landlady says that if we find somewhere before her other house is ready then just to go, she's not going to be annoyed if we don't give her any notice which is quite good of her.

The only problem with us finding somewhere else to live with another landlady/lord is that they might not be happy with us having cats, and we aren't prepared to give them up for the sake of moving into a house. Couldn't imagine not having the cats about us they're like members of the family!

By the autumn we could be moved, fingers crossed!

and we go on holiday!

All excited!!!

We were talking about it last night with hubbie's bro and sis and the more I hear about Bulgaria and Sunny Beach the more I'm looking forward to going.

We'll be going to the variety show and of course there's talk of doing either the sunset cruise on the catamarran (can't spell it!) or one of the other boaty trips which are almost an all day thing.

Not sure what else we'll be doing but that can be planned once we're out there because we're not sure what our holiday rep will be offering.

I got a new memory card for my mobile and I was trying to transfer the stuff on the old memory card onto the laptop so I could move it to the new memory card, it didn't quite work out that way but a few old pics have stayed on the laptop and I can't believe the feelings they brought back.

just incase you can't see the pic here is the link to my facebook to see the pic and more of them

When she was a kitten as you can see she liked sleeping in small spaces, or else curled up in my pashminas, I miss that.

Friday afternoon, half 3, bye bye office for another week.

Just as well got a stinking headache starting (it's been one of those days in here) and I'm looking forward to going home and possibly curling up in bed and just dozing for a bit to get rid of the headache. Sounds like a lovely idea doesn't it, shame it's not going to happen.

Wonder how many other plans and dreams I've had this week that have been dashed to despair? Probably quite a few.

Have to stop having so many dreams and turn them into realities. I've nothing really holding me back, no kids, no major commitments during the week at the mo and I've the urge to do something so maybe one day one of my many dreams will come true.

Ever wanted to wave a magic wand and make everything all better for those who need either the help or the comfort a little magic would bring? This is what I want to do.

It's hard to sit and watch someone go through something to dreadful and hateful and not be able to help them in any way other than being there for them and I know that this is what being a friend is about but sometimes it's not good enough and I don't understand why we have to just accept that.

Maybe eventually there will be something that I'm able to do to help her but until then I suppose I'll be relegated to the just being there category.

Now I'm not against anyone who wants to cycle to work in the morning I think it's brilliant that they're taking advantage of the exercise and reducing their carbon footprint at the same time but seriously do they really need to swerve out infront of me without looking?

I know not all cyclists are the same it's just a small minority that's thoughtless and reckless but it's that group that gives cyclists a bad name in general and it's not fair.

Three different cyclists I nearly hit this morning and all because they swerved out infront of me to avoid a car, I had to slam my brakes on a couple of times to avoid hitting them they came that close to me and I was doing my best to avoid them incase something did happen.

Stupid people but of course it wouldn't have been their fault would it if something had happened it would've been mine but I obey the rules of the road and don't pull out without checking there's nothing coming first which is more than I can say for them.

 Rant over. All smiles again.

I work in a plumbing and heating firm and guess what?

It's really cold in here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For goodness sake just because the big boss has got thick skin and never feels the cold doesn't mean the rest of us don't!

and it feels like it should be the end of the week it's been that odd in here.

It's been a full week since I got my new computer in work, I'd still prefer a laptop because it would make more sense for me to have one but how can you argue with the bosses, their minds operate different to the rest of us. A laptop would make more sense because I would be able to take all the extra work home with me rather than having to stay in the office till after 7pm at night and in a part of east belfast known for it's fighting at this time of year I don't really want to have my car sitting outside by itself when it could be sitting outside my house where it's easier to keep an eye on. Plus the amount of running about I do making sure I've got all the facts and figures I need to do my job if I had a laptop I'd be able to carry it about with me rather than having to keep running back to my desk or carrying about a whole load of printed pages that get binned as soon as they're looked at. What a waste!

Ok where did that rant come from?! Just surprised myself with that one.

Anyway it's the middle of the week and that means today I do the weekly wages so better get cracking with them or else they won't get paid this week, but then the bank might fluff up this week again so they guys might not get paid after all, will just have to wait and see.

Who can foresee tantrums and whining in my future?

As much as I want to support him in this venture because I know how much he does need to lose the amount of weight he is carrying I can't help but dread this. Does that make me a bad wife?

Yes he'll cut out the bad stuff that he eats but his idea of bad stuff completely differs from what the rest of us say is bad stuff so this is going to be all uphill I'm thinking.

Good luck to him though because that fact that he's finally wanting to do something about the weight he's carrying is brilliant.

and I'll be in Bulgaria having a well-deserved holiday with my hubbie and we'll be joining up with his family who'll have already arrived in the country a couple of days before us.

Am really looking forward to it because I've never been to Bulgaria before and I love learning about new cultures and ways of life, discovering new things and this year I'll be taking loads of photos to bring back with me.

Now don't get me wrong I'm not one of those people who'll make friends and family sit through every snapshot I've ever taken on a holiday but I like to have them for myself more than anything and if anyone wants to look at the pics well I won't stop them but I won't force them on people because I'm well aware of just how boring that can be.

We're going to Sunny Beach and apparently the weather is going to be amazing, it's already in the high 20s and 30s (deg C) at the mo and I'm worried about that because I cannot deal with warm weather whatsoever so it'll be interesting with me. I've got my factor 50+ all ready and waiting and I'm even going to be using the children's sun block rather than the normal adults one because that'll afford me extra protection and apart from that the normal adults 50+ is scarce at the mo, really hard to find so I'm stuck with the kiddies one anyway.

It's going to be weird going on hols at the time we're going this year because the company I work for gets the 12th fortnight off and the day we fly out of Aldergrove is the day I'm meant to start back to work after the 12th hols so it looks like I'll be working the July holidays so I can get away to Bulgaria. It'll be like a whole 4 weeks off when I sit and think on it. Can't wait!

It's unbelievable how much effort I've had to put into my day because I've still got my headache verging on mirgraine from yesterday (and before you say it's self-induced I didn't touch one drop of alcohol at all over the weekend so ).

Thought I was going to be sick as I drove back from my parent's yesterday and I wasn't sure how I was going to manage going round Tesco but the cats needed food so had to face the Sunday afternoon masses in Tesco. By the time I got to our house I was the walking dead and by the time I argued with hubbie and was marched up the stairs to curl up into bed I had no fight left in me and I crawled into bed as meek as you like and fell asleep straight away.

Usually sleep works wonders when my head is sore but not this time, it's still here and unfortunately I had no choice but come into work this afternoon because I had the accountant in to do my year end and I needed to be here for her incase she needed something or something explained which was mostly the case. Spent the day trying not to topple over or cry and that takes a hell of a lot out of you whilst still trying to get a days work done. Nightmare!

I'm staying late in work only because I'm not sure I'm able to drive just yet I feel so wobbly I'm not confident driving incase I cause an accident so better just staying here for the next few mins or so.

It's hard to imagine that a headache could cause so much trouble in my day. My words were muddled up each time I tried to talk, I kept feeling floaty all day and wasn't really aware of people talking to me and had to ask them to repeat most of what they had said and the nausea that come with the headache I can completely live without, though sometimes it does feel as though I'll feel better if I do throw up but I never can and I'm the kinda person who is able to make themselves throw up if they know it'll make them feel better.

What can be done about a major headache that I haven't already tried? I've taken as many tablets as I'm willing to take, I'm going home shortly and I'm going to bed as soon as I can after I make myself eat something and drink plenty of liquids cause my Nana insists that we get headaches because we don't drink enough so I always drink plenty of water just incase that's true plus it keeps her quiet as well which is always a bonus.

I dunno. Just hope the headache has gone for tomorrow because I don't think I could manage another day with it, especially in work.

I drew up a housework rota so that different things were dedicated to different days to make things easier. Now we've had this rota for about 3 weeks and so far it's been completely and utterly ignored.

This week I was full of great intentions to do as it said and keep to the rota, has it worked? Nope!

Ok well the dishes have gotten done each night but that's always been the case more-or-less unless we have to go out but that's all. The kitchen hasn't had the thorough cleaning it deserves and other than the floor getting a hoover on Sunday (not the day for hoovering I might add) nothing else has happened to the living room and boy does it need it. The upstairs rooms have only been ventured in at night when we're going to bed but that's about it.

Really need to get a wriggle on and get stuff done.

Part of the problem is that hubbie is working the early shift this week so we're getting to spend some time together which is rare at the mo with him working as much as possible and doing housework means that we'll get to spend less time together. Is that a good excuse?

It's not really but it's the only one I've got!

So what are the chances i might actually get something done tonight while he's changing the tyres on his car or maybe he'll go down to my parent's house and footer about with the car along with my Daddy, if he does that then I'll get as much housework done as possible but the chances are pretty slim. If it rains there's no hope.

I'm making it sound like our house is a tip and it's not, it could really be worse but with two cats running about that like to jump onto things and knock things over the place does get a bit untidy now and again. I'd be the biggest culprit for messing the kitchen up when I'm baking but I've never managed to bake and keep tidy at the same time, utterly impossible for me. I'm not good at tidying up after myself, that's what I got married for my hubbie jokes, but it's true, he does tidy up after me while I bake but then he knows that he'll get to taste everything I make if he does a few bits about the kitchen for me so it works out good for the both of us.

Wonder what I shall tackle tonight when I get in, maybe the fridge depending on what the rota will allow for tonight. Will see.

it has been.

My computer died Wednesday morning.

NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My computer in work holds all the Company accounts, payable and receivable, copies of all quotations sent out, details of all legal happenings, vehicle details and problems etc, and just about everything else you can think of and it died.

The computer man came in that afternoon when he was finished with his morning call-out and hooked my dead computer up to his wee mini computer thingy to see what it said. Nothing strange or startling came up but the computer still wouldn't turn on. I was told two things either it was a computer problem and all my work would be safe and he could restore it all to another computer or else it was a hardware problem and that meant there was a brilliant chance of losing everything and never getting it back.

The computer man wasn't hopeful.

His plan was to put the hardware into the freezer for 24 hours and then pull it out and stick it into a clean machine to see if he could read what was there, if that didn't work then he'd put it back into the freezer for another 72 hours and try again, if after that it didn't work then I'd never get my work back, it would be lose forever.

Spent the rest of the day doing my best not to bawl my eyes out because I just couldn't imagine what my Big Boss would do when he found out but he was actually ok about everything, not expected at all but as he said no point worrying about until we know what was happening.

I got a text message at teatime telling me that everything is ok. I started crying when I read it was just so relieved!

It was the computer that had died and not the hardware. Thank goodness for that.

A new computer has been ordered and should arrive tomorrow with any luck and then the computer guy will be in the office in the afternoon to put all my stuff onto it and reload sage, emails and everything like that so I can be up and running again by Tuesday at the latest.

It's definately been one of the worse weeks in work for me since I started 5 years ago, and it's not a week I want to repeat.

Though my important bits are backed up regularly nothing else is, but I've bought loads of disks and I'm going to back up every little bit of info that's on my computer whether I think I'll need it or not. I'm not going to take any chances whatsoever from now on.

Could really hate computers sometimes ya know?

My husband seems to think so!

At the start of 2007 my soon-to-be hubbie started to ask what I wanted for my birthday as my birthday was a week before our wedding and he wanted to make sure he was organised and had the time set side for me and I said a Nintendo DS would be nice but it was dear so wasn't really expecting one. A couple of weeks later there was a Nintendo DS waiting for me when I got home from work. (Since then I've learnt not to say what I would like because I know I'll get it long before I should).

I've been addicted to my DS ever since.

My hubbie is as much to blame for this addiction as I am because he has bought most of my games, I've bought very few of them.

My hubbie's sis got a DS at the end of 2007 and my two nephews both got one for Christmas so I'm not alone in my family being obsessed with it, everywhere you go our DS isn't far behind. Even my sis has gotten one, her boyfriend bought her it and asked why because it wasn't a special occasion she answered, 'Because it's a Sunday'.

Haven't had a new game in a while and I'm starting to get itchy fingers, but we're going to Bulgaria at the end of July so maybe I'll just have to get a couple of games to get me through the flight over and home again. Wonder if that excuse will work.

The only problem I have with the DS is that I can get very frustrated with some of the games, I've had to stop myself a couple of times from throwing it across the room because I'm so annoyed. I don't possess much patience and it shows when I play the Asterix and Obelix at the Olympics game, if I don't win a race I'll start shouting at the DS and getting grumpy with it. Childish maybe but I get like that now and again.

If I didn't have to work today I'd be playing my DS this afternoon.