My Place

So there was me thinking my blood pressure was going down and the Doctor/Nurse was happy with the way it was going and of course there it goes back up again.

I'm losing weight, I don't smoke, I don't drink all that often and when I do it's been okayed by the Nurse, I don't take salt in food and I'm as active as the average person. Why on earth is my body betraying me!!!!!!! Everyone keeps telling me to relax and not get so stressed about everything but high blood pressure doesn't have anything to do with stress and apart from that I'm not brilliant at relaxing, I'm useless at it.

I'm already on tablets for my blood pressure but it looks like my dosage will be increased next month if it has remained high.

I have been feeling a bit off the past couple of weeks, going very pale not regaining my colour for a while, heart palpitations, dizziness that sort of thing and apparently that was a sign my blood pressure was increasing, so I was having symptoms and not even realising it. At least now I know.

My one concern about this all is that I can't afford for the Doctor to put me on the sick, there's too much to pay out and sick-pay won't cover it, I know because I deal with that in work. Have to try and convince my Doctor that I'm not a danger to myself or anyone as my bp is increasing an awful lot higher than it was at it's highest before the tablets (have been told that in some cases people pass out or have fits). I would go stir crazy in the house anyway, there's only so much housework to be done and so much tv to be watched.

Oh well no point worrying about it until next month, I will find out for certain what's to be done about me but I'm hoping my bp will be down enough for the panic to be over.

...and all I can think is 'Oh dear the week starts all over again in a couple of days'.

It's going to be a rough week next week with two tech exams that I really need to pass or else I fail the course and must re-sit in September and I've to hand in a written research project that's about 8000 words but I haven't even got half of that! Getting a bit panicky about that one. Am trying my best with it but it's not going to be enough I fear.

Have also got an awful lot to do in work, not only for the Company I work for but for the other Company my Boss owns also. I volunteered to do it so I can't really complain but I think the reality of how much I've to do is just starting to hit me. I should think before I act I think.

Am just going to spend the weekend taking it easy I think start trying to bring my blood pressure down a bit, well that's what I'll tell my hubbie anyway and see if I can get away with it!

....so I go online in the College Library and I find this site. Out of natural curiosity I had a nosy and ended up joining. What on earth I'm going to talk about I'm not sure but will give it a good go. I keep a diary/journal for writing my thoughts in now and again so maybe I can get rid of it and use this instead? Will see.

Got my presentation to do in about 10 mins or so and I'm not looking forward to it but at least the Tutor is kind enough and is letting a lot of us do our presentations by ourselves rather than having to do them infront of the whole class (nice man). I'm not a public speaker, even thinking about it I can feel my heart rate increasing, my breathing getting quicker, my hands beginning to shake - better stop thinking about it then!

15 mins of waffle with just the Tutor as my audience that's the easy part we also have to hand in a written research project as well and after talking to one of the others in my class I'm not doing that badly cause I'm near finished my writing, she hasn't even started. Oh dear. Everything must be handed in by next week and I hope she'll manage ok.